So................ what had happened was !!!????!!!

OK I guess it wasnt the best idea to start the week before my son and I's birthday! I have been completely off the wagon all week.  On a brighter note I went to the gym a couple of times and bought Zumba for the Playstation. I love it and am looking forward to doing that on a daily basis! Even Wes was doing it so that tells you it must be a workout! I have secretly filmed him so I can hold for ransom if it should ever need to come to that!!!

I am having a birthday get together tonight and my nephews party this afternoon! I am super excited about spending time with family and then friends tonight!

My plan for the week  Hardcore eating right starting Sunday AM. And also being physically active everyday if not at the gym then atleast 30 minutes of Zumba at home!  Last but not least posting everyday this week!! (oh and writing three essay ughhhhhhhhH!!!)

Alright I am off for now I dont want to be TARDY FOR THE PARTY!!!!(for you Real Housewives fans out there)

Monday, Monday!

Back to the Gym tomorrow , start taking my will ( I mean phentermine!) I have a 40 day supply so I need to kick this eating addiction = have to have something sweet to feel complete feeling quick! 

Pain over suffering Kylee Pain over suffering!!

"Supposing you have tried and failed again and again. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing that we call "Failure" is not the falling down, but the staying down.”

Snowed In has got me thinking!!

So I was supposed to start going back to the gym on Monday but "due to inclement weather" I was not able to ! Although I have had a great week with my husband and kids, spending lots of quality time together it made me realize that the week that should have been the start ... was not.
 If I look back at the last 12 years of my life I can recount dozens of times that I started a diet and started exercising only to have life throw a curve ball my way or just plan get discouraged. What is going to make this time different? What is going to make me successful this time because over the next couple of years I will surely face many road blocks what will I do differently? Honestly I don't have the answer, I do know that I have keep going, no matter what happens I have to wake up everyday putting Kylee first and anyone who  knows me knows this is a struggle. I have to maintain the life or death mentality and chose life over food,  choose pain over suffering and realize that the bend in the road (that is sure to come) is only the end of the road if I choose not to make the turn!

Another Imposter In this House??

For the last few days I have been able to sleep in.  Wes has been feeding and watching the kids every morning! I have been able to sleep in until  9 and yesterday was 10am. Now I have never been one to sleep in I was raised to feel like I was wasting the day but I have to say there is something satisfying about getting up because you want to and not just because your alarm clock ( and by alarm clock I mean Khalil my 2 year old!) tells you too! School has been cancelled the last three days because of the snow storm so I am sure the sleeping in will not continue!
I guess If I going to accomplish everything that I need to get done in a day  I will just have to adjust my normal rise and shine from 7 to 6 am and just say I am in charge of this wake up!!!
I do need to say thank you to my husband though ( or whoever is currently living with me) !!

1st Official Post!!

Testing Testing one two three!!